In grade school we were given an assignment
to sculpt a person or object out of clay.
At the time, I was struggling with
navigating my mom. A strong force of nature,
a stay home mother that was so filled with creativity
and energy she felt stuck.
And as a daughter, I could feel something uneasy
but did not know what.
She designed sets for the local community theater at night.
Cooked for the food fair and
was active in the art community we lived …
but that did not fulfill her.
There are so many people in our communities
that are not fulfilled in the lives that they are living.
That are afraid to make the move to something new
and something different.
They stay in their lane frustrated.
It takes strength and stability to make a move.
First one needs to tap into their inner silence
to understand all possibilities are out there
to live a dynamic life.
The best way to find it is stilling our inner state.
Once we are still we can then take action
in the direction of progressive change.
An action towards grace. That’s the beauty
of our daily meditation practice. It allows us the stillness
to sense the directions of our desire. And evolution.
Back to grade school..
I picked Lucy from the comic strip Peanuts.
I connected with her.
She was bossy and opinionated.
She bullied Linus and Charlie Brown.
My hidden secret was that Lucy and my mother
seemed to be the same character.
Most of my friends’ moms were kind and
not as openly verbose.
I have lived with this sculpture of my mom
since grade school and as each year passes
I am thankful for that screaming
tenacity. An exemplar of a woman that wanted more.
.
Her “being” made it clear that I needed to follow
the charm presented to me and not stay in my lane.
To move in the direction of creation for work,
for myself and service for others.
My mom, like all of us evolve with three evolutionary forces
Creation, Maintenance and Destruction
and they are there as our teachers to
provide guidance.
Let’s tap into yours.
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