Thoughts
SUNDAY DECK TALK AND MEDITATION: FULFILLMENT

Image from the cover of : ‘Go See 2011
New York: Louise Bourgeois: “The Fabric Works”
at Cheim & Read Gallery’
Bourgeois wrote, “The sewing is my attempt to keep
things together and make things whole.”
The work shown is of textile collages, clothing,
fragments from her childhood, growing up within a
tapestry restoration family business
embedded in her physiology,
all making rhyme or reason of her feelings
to cut, unravel, weave, knot and mend.
She stated that she always had a fear
of being separated/abandoned.
The 2011 show and narrative
planted a seed for me that I now recognize
more fully.
Not only has it held things together, I literally, physically used
the mailer from the show to embody all of my wishes
and dreams from back in 2011.
It has been part of my pin-up wall collage since then.
I see how fully, even before
my meditation practice began, that
“Thoughts become Things”.
Fulfillment comes from those that want to be fulfilled.
Sadness comes from those that want to be sad.
Fulfillment of human consciousness lies in the
attainment of our understanding
of our abilities to bring together
our absolute and relative values of life.
Our matter of what can be.
Who are we really?
What is our true state of Being.
Bullseye
As we experience tomorrow
as the darkest day of the year, let’s build
our own collage of wishes of fulfillment, love, desires,
memories we want to hold or forget,
All bound together.
Our true Being.
Make this upcoming year a year of Light and Fulfillment.
Happy Winter Solstice
with the smells of cookies baking,
incense burning
Beethoven Blues tickling your ears.
12.22.2024 Deck Talk available upon request info@fifthfloormeditation.com
Sunday Deck Talk and Meditation: Text and Textile



OLGA DE AMARAL
I had the great good fortune to travel to Paris
to see the Columbian weaver
Olga de Amaral’s – The Texture of Time show at the
Cartier Foundation, there til March 16, 2025.
The space and the 80 plus weavings were
extraordinary.
Each intricate weaving challenging my perception
of how they were made.
In the show, there’s a description:
“text” and “textile”
share
the same root, in Latin “Texere”, which means both
to weave and to tell.
Each of Olga’s textiles tells a unique story.
Her connection with nature is felt throughout
the exhibition. The large slate
boulders on the first floor, communing with
her large woven sculptures, give
way to nature’s textures.
Color, Technique, Light emanating from inside.
It was all there.
Connecting explicitly with our meditation practice and studies.
Olga states,
”The vitality of a rock is its presence.”
How Vedic can you get?
I recall in more than 3/4 of my life, how I would feel
after going to a show like this. Jealousy,
despair, critical of my underachievements.
A persistent drumbeat in my mind that I will
never be good enough.
“Snap out of it” I would say to myself. “Stop
bullying yourself.”
Honestly, it wasn’t until I learned this technique of meditation,
to calm my nervous system, to see
what I was doing to myself.
This is what allows us to
transcend all of these small self
indoctrinations.
And let go of this discrimination of ourselves and of others.
Vedic Meditation brilliantly brings the joy and light of life
into focus.
In this way, I can be fully open to these incredible,
intricate, delightful pieces and be enamored by
Olga’s weaving techniques that could bring
intrigue, happiness, life and love to
the craft that I behold.
12.15.2024 Deck Talk available upon request info@fifthfloormeditation.com
SUNDAY DECK TALK AND MEDITATION: STEADY IS A STATE OF BEING

Weaving creates a steady state. This particular piece
reminds me of the spine. Vertebra by vertebra.
Consistent “picks” between each material
holding the structure in place.
All too often, through too much weight strain,
too much sitting, too much repetitive motion,
we sense damage to the
structural apparatus that holds us upright.
Or is it muscle memory around the spine? And
tension we put upon ourselves?
Dr. John Sarno wrote books about the subject of
back pain and how it comes from too much stress.
I’m beginning to realize that there is
something to the books that Sarno wrote
which makes sense.
Add our awareness of the possibility to
allow ourselves to be in a steady state,
without desires, beyond our self and back pain.
That gives us a path to move forward.
I love this quote from the Bhagavad-Gita:
“When a man completely casts off all desires
that have gone (deep) into the mind… when
he is satisfied in the Self through the Self alone,
then is he said to be of steady intellect.”
This means then… if we allow ourselves to rest
in the state of blissful Being and realize that this
steady Self is different from the mind, engaged
with all kinds of desires and activities, then
we can recognize our steady Self is really
all we need.
And let go of the stresses and to-do’s.
It’s not that we become inactive.
It’s that we stabilize our body and mind,
with our twice-a-day meditation practice,
to recognize the difference between
our steady state of Being and an overly fraught,
desire- and object-driven mind.
Weaving our way into Happiness.
12.08.2024 info@fifthfloormeditation.com
SUNDAY DECK TALK AND MEDITATION: KNOWING YOURSELF

Hoping you all had a peaceful day of giving Thanks!
Being with family always gives me a quick check up
on how my nervous system has evolved.
Thinking about the concept of “who am I” coming
into the lives of my brother’s family and reframing
it to “what am I” feels a lot more like how I want to feel.
Who am I feels so separate, almost
defensive; what am I, feels more contented.
If I can stay in that field of Being
the observer of all things going around me.
Then I can be of service to others and
be of the most help.
I stepped into my nephew’s room, who was
home visiting too, and was thrilled to see
the vastness of
his collection of shoes. @samtick_footwear
Some he made — prototypes
that were brought to market, some
never destined to be on the market.
Others, he simply liked and collected.
I was struck by the vast personalities of each shoe.
Each with their own unique nervous system.
It sent me looking for a favorite passage in Alistair Shearer’s book: The Yoga Sutras of Patanjali
he writes:
”According to yoga, we suffer because
we live in ignorance. We are ignorant of our real nature.
Our true nature lies beyond the restrictions of
our careworn and humdrum existence,
ecstatically free and untouched by suffering.
Deep within the mind, beyond the faintest
flicker of thought, it is experienced as an
undying and omnipresent vastness.
It is absolute consciousness.
Animating everything in creation,
this is the source and goal of all life…
The more developed the nervous system,
the more it will express the qualities of pure
consciousness—intelligence, creativity, and bliss.”
Recognizing this year feels different than any
other year of visiting, I am left with
this quote
by T.S. Elliot
”We shall not cease from exploration
And the end of all our exploring
Will be to arrive where we started
And know the place for the first time.”
Giving thanks to all of you that
are curious and in my life.
Sharing our lives together
growing and expanding
is the absolute best.
12.01.2024 Deck Talk available upon request info@fifthfloormeditation.com
Sunday Deck Talk and Meditation:Go Beyond the Point of No Return

I had rested with this small stainless steel woven
foundation for a bit, until I realized
I was going to run out
of the special metal fiber I had acquired in
Paris. I was there some ten years ago. The fiber
was awaiting the perfect piece.
So I pulled it all apart this week to start afresh.
I have saved the metallic thread to
cast it in another direction for this ground weave.
A 3+1 twill, the strongest weave, that
Levi Strauss has used
for years in their jean structures.
Recognizing the concept to stop ignoring
the inevitable, I needed to redirect this project.
Like life, and some dark laden relationships.
We must recognize if propositions, friendships,
products, weave structures are failing, then best to
redirect your energies onward before the Used
by Date gets you.
Building a strong foundation for
friendships and for weavings
(at least in my life) never ends.
It’s the style of relating to find
fulfillment and fullness that changes and we are
looking for.
A better way to relate. A better use
of the materials at hand.
Couldn’t help but recognize the strength
of the number 3 + 1 here.
A point for discussion.
As nature teaches us we are always evolving
so, let go of the ever-repeating known and
take action in a new direction if you are at
a point of no return…
11.24.2024 Deck Talk available upon request info@fifthfloormeditation.com